2006-03-06 - 12:09

Today I am messed up in the head. Oh yes I am. Depressed and disconnected. But all my work is done, so it's OK.

I had to cancel the appointment I had with APRN tomorrow, and also the one with my primary care doc (actually a nurse practitioner, whom I like better than a doc) because I don't have the flexible spending money I was told I'd have by the first. I can't go change my name on my driver's license tomorrow because I have no glasses to take the eye test with (I was going to get new ones with, you guessed it, my FSA money). I am going to change my name on my Social Security card, though, and that will allow my employer to change my name on my records. I am also going to see an EAP counselor to "hold me over" until I can see APRN.

I wrote a nasty letter to City Weekly last week. Okay, not to City Weekly EXACTLY, to a woman they interviewed. I sent it to CW for publication. This woman went on and on about how she can't stand sharing her 200 South business space with "bums." Madam, said I, you are stuck up. People experiencing homelessness have just as much right to inhabit 200 South as your hot dog stand does. I hope they publish it. If so, I'll put the link in my blog on Wednesday.

On an unrelated (but kind of related) note, I have to stop spending so much time just hanging out with Lincoln. Not that I don't like Linc, quite the opposite. I love him to pieces, but sometimes I feel like I spend so much time with him that I've become his appendage. His parasite, even. His little Rhonda.* We don't really even do anything while we're together, mostly just get wasted, which also has to stop. Seeing the occasional movie is great, but I used to play with yarn and read and get into politics, and I feel like I haven't done any of that stuff since I started seeing him. It's not his fault. I've just been spending my time establishing our attachment, when I could have been making better use of it (I have a feeling the attachment would have happened anyway). Well, there's no time like the present to start back up on some projects. I have several lined up:
Elegant Shawl (www.lionbrand.com): warm fuzzy shawl that looks like butterfly wings. I'm going to wear it around the office when it gets cold.
Bridal Garter (I have to find a pattern) for Lincoln's sister who is getting married in June. We're having a birthday dinner for her on Sunday, so I have to have it finished by then.
Potholders for my new pad and for my dad
Baby stuff for Jackie and Melissa, due 22 June and 4 July, respectively
Everything else. I have gone SABLE, as they say (Stash Advanced Beyond Life Expectancy). I must give my pointy sticks a workout.

*Reference to my dad's girlfriend, who is a perfectly smart and capable human being but refuses to recognize herself as such, preferring to establish her identity through attachment to a male.

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